Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you - Gina
10:54:00 PM, our Y grow
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that alwaystore us apart
is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself,
you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things likesuicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind -Regina
2:33:00 AM, our Y grow
I hav 2 block out tots of U -so I dun lose my head Dey crawl in lyk a cockroach leavin babies in my bed Droppin LiL reels of tape 2 remynd me Dat Im alone Playin movies in my head dat make a porno fiL lyk home Deres a burnin in my pride, a nervous BLEEDIN in my brain An ounce of peace is all I wan froM U. Will you NEVER call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? IT IS I DAT WANTED SPACE- ~iZy
1:09:00 AM, our Y grow
Friday, December 28, 2007
I can't escape this hell So many times i've tried But i'm still caged inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't escape myself- ~iZy
11:00:00 PM, our Y grow
Monday, December 24, 2007
i screwed up my OWN LyFE-
FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! congratsizyan.. u won ur own game! yeaaaheyyyy!!! Judgement Dae.. wil it be soon? o_O? im gettin weaker n weaker as de daMN clock TICKS- ~iZy
9:39:00 PM, our Y grow
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Your Emoticon is Cool
You're not feeling particularly up or down, just relaxed and calm. You're ready for whatever is going to happen next!
there's smthg wrong with video postin'. i dunno y there is a pic of it below the video. and for izy. she couldn't even find the play button. so i gotta repost.
to u know. try it out.
it's not goin at 40km/hr. it's like ard 90km/hr. our safety driver. =P
i still love sharp right turns! =)
+.*:Regina:*.+
5:00:00 PM, our Y grow
-Time and Space- 7 daes.. & its dae 3 2dae. Yep, u've managed 2 gve me de space.. but Nope, i stil cant fynd dat spark. oopppss. IT cant be forced- so dun b in denial, my fren~ ___________________________________________________ Niwaes, had fun wif de "safe" ryde ytd.. Kak, bro, ps n gina.. tanx 4 brightenin up my dae luvs! weeee~ =) ___________________________________________________ Next up, Mazzy to blanja SNAILOS to pizzahut!!! quick laa seyy~ ___________________________________________________ ~iZy
11:36:00 AM, our Y grow
Wee!!! i woke up on time today. for outing with kak fazi, saiful, ps and izy. we'll let the pictures do a bit of the talkin'. =)
this are the after that photos.
b4 that we went to LJS for brunch. =)
super yummy.
SUPER HUGE BREAD.
super full us.
there are more pics.
but i refuse to upload some of them...
becos, can see my disgusting double chin.
got ps's too.
due to ethical issue.
i'm not takin' the risk. =D
despite the "fear" of the roller coater ride.
we still could cam-whore. =P
Us at the back. Gettin' warmer. Crazier =P
See those fangs?!
Opps. i got caught for this.
Izy, Me, Ps.
Wee~ izy & Me.
The besties.
okays... this ain't the main point. the main point is.... Kak's driving. =)
hahas. we're not sayin' her drivin' is bad. i find it good lor... it was fun for me. excitable for izy . horrifyin' for ps. =P
dun believe?? watch this. i love sharp right turns. =)
FUN RIGHT??!! =)
credits : kak's drivin'. bro's super bitter chocolates. regina's uploadins' ps and izy's faces.
Weee~!! SUPER DUPER FUN!!! YEAHHH~!!!
*.+:Regina:+.*
12:11:00 AM, our Y grow
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
it's not that i dun bother. i can't. and i shdn't interfere. if i poke my nose a lil' too deep in. things may get worst. misunderstandings may occur. i dun wan to be thought of as taking sides or even stopping or influencing wadever decision u r gona make. i talk, cos u asked. when it's time for me to shut up. i will. and i feel. so not needed anymore. maybe becos i'm so used to being leaned on. that when u start to handle things on ur own. i feel funny. u grew up. u're not the lil' girl anymore. and i'm glad. but still. i worry alot. but cant do anything. i go to slp worrying, and wake up with the same thing in mind. call me dumb. but this is me. in my super messed up mind. i still care. mummy loves u. .:Regina:.
12:57:00 AM, our Y grow
Monday, December 17, 2007
LEAVE ME ALONE. GET DIS IN UR HEAD!!
CANN???? ~iZy
10:21:00 AM, our Y grow
Niwaes, i mis snailos. i mis kak. i mis AAFC. i mis Farhan. i mis aishu, inah, haran, yan, hajar n aisyah. i mis brown. i mis happiness- ahaa.. i dun rmbr mentionin U here. Get dat, rytee in ur hypothalamus! ~iZy
reasons y i got u the shoe. - i wanted to see the surprised and happy smile on ur face. - u were sick of ur old shoes. - u mentioned 3 times tt u wanna get the shoe. - u looked at it over 3 times in the shop. - u told rach and mazna abt the shoe. - u were super obsessed with it. - it's christmas exchange, and i'm ur angel AGAIN. time to get something Izyan-ish, and not pinkish. - i wan u to be happy. - i jus wanna get it for u - my bestie. - i lurve you
i'm not crazy. budget don't matter. it means nothing more than ur smile. beats havainas slippers, beats online shopping, beats wastin' it on my usual useless cute stuffs, beats anything else in the world i could think of currently. jus to see u happy. although i know. that it didn't cheer u up, as much as i expected it to. due to what happened - unexpected and unwanted "surprises". i was a lil' disappointed. but nobody wanted all these to happen. & i luv u too. and i always meant it when i say that. anyways, y did u ask me if i chose the wrapping paper? i wanted to get the spongebob one. but it disappeared in jus. one day.
*.+ REGINA +.*
8:26:00 PM, our Y grow
Dearest GOD,
U brought me to dese..
n i STRONGLY believe dat u'L put me thru all dese reali2 WELL.
-FAITH-
Jus nid 2 b stronger den de weaker 1,
N b as strong as de strongest 1.
N to u,
my LiL dearie baby,
im extremely sorie.
buT GOD, Luvs u mOre.
& u'L stay rytee here,
in evry1's heart..
whre its safe, warm n full of Luv..
to de otr u,
i nid Tyme.
-4 aLL-
reli.
to Snailos n all my beluved ones,
I LUVU ALL.
n i min it..
from de core of my LiL heart-
Tanx-4 bein dere 4 me.
Appreciate u all.
N ThankGOD4 u pple 2 b ard.
~iZy
10:11:00 AM, our Y grow
Friday, December 14, 2007
i didn't make it today for the "no vulgarities" day. cos when my hp dropped. my F word came out again.
y everything had to happen at the same time? is this really some kinda test? to test for wad? how strong we all are??
although i may not be in the situation myself. i can feel how it is like. and it breaks my heart to see u like this. especially when i cant do much to help.
for what i've done. i want nothing in return. i jus want u to be happy. and all these had to happen.
it's one blow adding on to another. but u haf to be strong like u promised me to.
i want to see the old u soon. i would rather turn time back. than see u more hurt than hurt.
STAY STRONG. keep ur faith in GOD strong. he will bring u outta these. to god. pls take care of the lil' one. & to the lil' one. god will take care of u.
i believe there's one mighty god. and i trust in him. to take care of all these. god bless.
with lurves and deepest sorries. - regina
9:36:00 PM, our Y grow
Thursday, December 13, 2007
one more day. then my "no vulgarity week" will be over. then i need to start another week, for my bio, cos i passed too. though not colourful. another "no vulgarity week". haiz... then i will surely become a total good girl if this continue. YIPPIES!!! tml... is christmas gift exchange day! and i wonder who is my angel. nah.. it's okays. the fun part will be all the surprises!!! i love NR0630 laa seyy... thru the green door, into the misty room, found a red wooden chest... *.+ regina +.*
8:44:00 PM, our Y grow
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
into the MISTY ro0m. *.+ regina +.*
9:06:00 AM, our Y grow
2wards dat GREEN door..
~iZy
12:39:00 AM, our Y grow
Sunday, December 9, 2007
As confusing as it may seem. it is Life. part Of life. that iS y... we can never seem To really understand certain definitions in life. till u really experience it.
go with The flow. we'll find Out. tOgether. =) hahas.
appreciate u as much! sehati sejiwa. Gendengs~ is LOVE.
*.+ Regina +..*
10:04:00 PM, our Y grow
Babe, hw bout a polyclc date so0n..?
~iZy
6:37:00 PM, our Y grow
i appreciate u much. but de four Letters confuses mE. i lost, wen i sawbrown. it wasnt On purpose. Reali. mann.. y isit Very hard..? im killin my ownslf. wadde hEck?? ouh noo! =(
-S.O.S-
>>to GOD,
wif Lurve.. ~iZy
6:10:00 PM, our Y grow
my mind is sorta. blanky and whirly.
and now. my occipital hurts. the back of my neck aches. and my head feels heavy. with my temples. throbbing away.
hahas. ytd was chest pain. AGAIN. squeezing pressure radiating to my neck, left shoulder and left upper arm. and slightly, to the left upper back. although it's not very very strong. but then. it's obvious enough for me to feel. and notice. the dull squeezing pain. and plus. it was a lil' hard to breathe. i tried to breathe in deep. but then. didn't seemed to help.
lateral left, NO. lateral right, NO. supine, still a lil' hard to breathe. prone, made it go away a lil'. b4 i start to drift off to slp. it will come again. my fingers got a lil' tingling numb.
but when i wake up this morning. it was back to normal again. except. later in the afternoon. the tightness came and go. not as bad as ytd's though. but then, breathing was a lil' tiring.
moral of the story. angina was the closest to all these. becos. it goes away with rest?? i think.
*.+ Regina +.*
1:05:00 AM, our Y grow
Thursday, December 6, 2007
i've got things to say. but she won't let meeee~
I BINGET NIEEEEEE!!! YUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKSSSS~!
irritating nye.. shittoish... but i wanna laugh. tell me when u gonna laugh kays? i nak join~ hehex.
anyways b. u fall? i catch! but still, dun fall too deep kays? i scared of heights laa seyy.
i'll hold ur hand. and bring u there. let's do it slow yeah~ cos i short. we'll use ropes. =) Gendengs is love. & love is sweet. regina is cute =D opps. i know. =P so are u. +.*Regina*.+ =]
10:50:00 PM, our Y grow
i tink.... im fallin.. - - - - - - -
- trust. shud i? ~iZy
9:33:00 PM, our Y grow
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
hehex. then our lifes will evolve ard OFFICE HOURS laa seyy... boring nye...
EEEIIIIKKKKSSSS! rabaks~
let's see. gym date down... Gendeng nyee... i bring stuffs dyy seyy.. kk nehmind. tattooist down... SET ehh.. next time. with rach and mazzy all.
NOW. Hmm... let's see... hitman? 30 days of nights? or enchanted?? hard to decide man.. want to scream? shout? or fall in love laa seyy... throw popcorns?
k baby.. see u in... 45mins time? =)))
today i happy laaa... =) lurves!!!
.:regina:. =P
1:42:00 PM, our Y grow
okaess... gym date oso down... gendeng nyee!! hah. next up -de tattooist w nana~ weeeee!! k babe, c u in 2.5 hrs tyme kaes. toodles~ ~iZy
11:32:00 AM, our Y grow
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
BOOOOOOOOHHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
I BINGET NIEE!!!
EEEEEIIISSSSHH!!
mann... office hours? bodohh larr seyy!!
TOOOOOOOOOOOoooTTTSs!!! ~iZy
11:48:00 PM, our Y grow
I SADD OSO LARRR SEYY!! cos.. tmr i got no plans! gendeng larr seyy!! stress noee nev go out! 1 plan down cos dat person got 2 study 4 end yr exam~ alaaa!! bo00~ n i dun noee if i shud kol up my bestie nt.. hehx.. doinkss.. or shall i go gym w nana n viji? or shall i sit down sumwhre peaceful n do my 2036 ica? eeeeeeeeeeeee!!! yuckks! no-nooo! dat wan, later2 den can do.. hah. so, how now brown cow?? haixx- ~iZy
8:42:00 PM, our Y grow
i sad laa seyy...
bcos next tuesday got ICA...
so must have meeting.
so today... must stay back after school.
so no body can acc me.
cos they wanna go homes.
and meet bf...
tml only got one?two? hr lesson.
must meeting.
so must go to school.
how sad can life be?
especially when u only
haf one lect 9 to 10 tml...
or 2 lect?
i sad laa seyy... pujok~
.:regina:. =P
4:58:00 PM, our Y grow
Monday, December 3, 2007
i SAW...
one word to describe.
DUMB.
O_o
it's not a vulgarity.
someone pissed me off??
WADEVER!
LIARS~
Bo0 to them...
i'm bitchy...
SO WAD?
bluekssss..!!!
.:regina:. =P
11:03:00 PM, our Y grow
IHEARD... ~iZy
10:20:00 PM, our Y grow
WOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! BIO DOWN LARR SEYY!!! YESS AHH!! hehehehehes! wic simply mins, Im free!! frens, lets go: ~shoppin ~watch muveeS ~go pizza hut >> sponsored by mazzy! ~class outin ~play pooL ~play badminton ~go gym & ~hm..i tink its tyme 4 me 2 cntct back my bestie.. (whoopssiee!)
hehx. -peace- ~iZy
7:20:00 PM, our Y grow
Sunday, December 2, 2007
err... its 730pm.. and..i dun noe wadd im tinkin, cos i stil haven START studyin 4 bio pract, wic happens to start @ 9am tmr... hmss.. so wadd m i doin in nursin, stil?? bahh.. =X 1 werd. LAZEE~ ~iZy
we still could cam-whore. =P
Us at the back. Gettin' warmer. Crazier =P
See those fangs?!
Opps. i got caught for this.
Izy, Me, Ps.
Wee~ izy & Me.
The besties.
