Friday, November 30, 2007
to my dearest baby izy, thanks fer being dere,thanks fer showin' care.Sorry fer being "bad".which made u really vexed.now i assure that.this history will not repeatcos it ain't abt being sorry,by actions, and not words, i will prove.mark my words to be true. ----------------------------------------anyone of us - gareth gates I’ve been letting you down, downGirl I know I've been such a foolGiving in to temptationI should’ve played it coolThe situation got out of handI hope you understandIt can happen to anyone of usAnyone you think ofAnyone can fallAnyone can hurt someone they loveHearts will break‘Cause I made a stupid mistakeIt can happen to anyone of us Say you will forgive meAnyone can failSay you will believe meI can’t take, my heart will break‘Cause I made a stupid mistake, a stupid mistakeIt was kind of excitingA little crazy I should’ve knownIt must’ve altered my senses‘Cause I started to do it wrong.The situation got out of handI hope you understandIt can happen to anyone of usAnyone you think ofAnyone can fallAnyone can hurt someone they loveHearts will break‘Cause I made a stupid mistakeIt can happen to anyone of usSay you will forgive meAnyone can failSay you will believe meI can’t take, my heart will break‘Cause I made a stupid mistake, a stupid mistakeA stupid mistakeYou mean everything to me (everything to me) I swear every word is trueDon’t wanna lose youThe situation got out of handI hope you understandIt can happen to anyone of usAnyone you think ofAnyone can fallAnyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break‘Cause I made a stupid mistakeIt can happen to anyone of usSay you will forgive meAnyone can failSay you will believe meI can’t take, my heart will break‘Cause I made a stupid mistakeAnyone can fallAnyone can hurt someone they loveHearts will break‘Cause I made a stupid mistake, a stupid mistake.haiyaa,i lurve u =P.:regina:. =D
11:44:00 PM,
our Y grow
Besties DO argue/misunderstood each otr.
daTs how de frenship gets tighter-
yea, TigHter den any virgin's V.
=P
-Critism-
Go on. sAE wadever U pple wan.
EH, jus take kaire of ur own zip kaes??
i'l tke gudd kaire of myne~
tanx niwaes.
~iZy
10:19:00 PM,
our Y grow
Congrats pple!!
=D
up next>> bio!
~iZy
9:54:00 PM,
our Y grow
Hys lyfe's a lyk war zone
Swearin & curses destruct lyk droppin bombs,
But de war aint stoppin
de rain kips drippin
As he fytes de Gladiator
to survive hys lyfe journey.
He kips gettin de shytts,
credits to de king.
He tried to fynd de rsn of de attcks n killins..
hys tears dropped 2 de earth
he feared evry momment..
cried hymslf 2 slp & dere were break of silence.
Hys heart's a blaze,
sufferin in pain
& de innocent soul was attacked, agn.
de werds of de king pierced in deep lyk an arrow
But he's still standin tall
wiF hys pain & sorrow.
He's olwaes de victim,
not de real culprit-
de innocence is dere
bUT, no 1 believes hym..
-randomness-
~iZy
5:25:00 PM,
our Y grow
okaes.. An hour to deir pract test.
me n SS nw @ maCd.. eatin mCfLurry.
yumm2!
=P
owhs, hope 2 hear gudd news soon!
Niwaes, i mis dese pple..
abu, ali, minah, mat, joyah, pe'aH, siti n johan...
hahahahxx! kk, im jus bored~
=P
But.. i stil wana do dese tho:
Punch de great wall of china
Huff n puff n blow de brick hse down
Pull de trigger aimed @ my hypothalamus
n Drown myslf in de kiddo's pooL~
-ok, aft mon dat is-
~iZy
5:05:00 PM,
our Y grow
Thursday, November 29, 2007
babe.
jus put otrs asyde n Focus on tmr's pract.
pls.~iZy
10:41:00 PM,
our Y grow
&......
i tink...
i wun blog much dyy..
unles, i cant hold it.
cos..
ah, nvm.
no further explanation needed fer dis~bUt sumhw, tings hppen @ wrg tymin(s)..so.
HAixx. Dnoe laa~m i such a badd fren?
do i deserve 2 b kold 'fren' @ de ferst plc?self-centered?
egoistic?
ahhh.
pathetic ME~dis isnt emo-in.
but wadever had "happened(s)"...
lead me to wryte de above..eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!kk...huever involved, pls prioritise ur lyfe events.
Focus.
AHH. BULLshyytto!
~iZy
8:45:00 PM,
our Y grow
I ...
got loads to exlain...
BUT,
I...M terribly speechless.
~iZy
8:29:00 PM,
our Y grow
Hmm.. i think.u are irritated with me.but my posts were just to let it out.
to clear my mind. to rant what i wanna rant. to stop my "emoshyte" and messy useless thoughts.b4 i can sit down and study.i knw u wanna share ur joy.tt u cleared ur week 8 stressors and passed ur clinical.but i probably spoilt it with my dummy posts.cos u deleted ur happy post.and i did saw it.opps! sorry fer tt. i'm happy for u guys too!tt's y... i'm not so stressed up today.at least i know u guys cleared this clinical.which is *phew~*.i'm not confident at all fer my clinical.cos i didn't study much or practise much.i didn't verbalise at all.okays. thankyous darlx izyan!i will go and mug hard now. and practise hard tml with mazzy.probably u guys wont understand. cos u guys have the boulder down.but we're really afraid tt we might fail.cos... if tt happens.it means. we would be separated next sem.and the answer will come out tml fer me.and next tues fer mazzy.and if i don't make it. it might be next wed or smthg fer me too.so... we're very very very scared.but don't worry. we won't give up.cos it's only up to us now to help ourselves.and we'll think adidas and nike.no matter wad... we'll try our best.who cares who the lecturer is. who cares if he/she doesn't play "let's imagine.."we'll jus do it.cos nothing is impossible.so tml. u remember at 6 - 8pm.gimme emotional and mental support like how u say u would tt day.and BLOW me back my luck.with 100% interest. cos i need it. after tt... i'll split it with u again.FAIR? - i borrowed u mine today lorr...c'mon.. dun be stingy yea?? =)thanks and lurves u baby! .:regina:.
6:39:00 PM,
our Y grow
ytd's 15mins nap from 12:15am ended at 6.32am.couldn't understand wad i wrote in my notes.so i tried to make them make sense to my half awake mind.okays. they didn't make sense. so i decided to rest awhile. asked my mum to wake me up in 10mins.and i woke up 8 plus again.msged snailos. ate breakfast. get ready. okays. rach, fiq and izy passed.maz, aisha, hid and Ss failed.[y every-test-day 4 person must fail?] tml only got 5 person test lehh...pack bag. went to school.for tutorial. went to practise lab..those who failed had to haf remedial...watched them practise. understood their mistakes a lil'...okays. and now... i'm back at HOME.somewhere so cosy and comfy.where i always fall aslp when i try to study.plus. stupid pharmarcy doesn't sell vial and ampoules or normal saline bottles.so... how do i practise?i can already understand how those who failed feels.am i gonna feel like tt tml?this is sooo shitto...wad if i get a strict lecturer tml?wad if i accidentally contaminate anything?wad if i miss any impt steps??okays... then i'll fail. and then i'll have to do retest probably on wed?? nehminds. i ain't emoing.i jus hate exam period..especially when u totally haf no confidence in how u will fare...becos u so sickeningly cannot study...EEEWWWW... YYYUUUCCCCKKKKSSSS!okays bye.i done ranting.i let it out!!!to izy and mazzy - the answer to the qns u guys asked is here.1) wad happened?? - nothing happened. this was wad was on my mind jus now.2) wad's ur plan for today?- i got no plan. i want to study. but i can't study alone cos i wont understand. and i cant practise cos i got no equipments.and i cannot study at home cos i will fall aslp.tt's it...i will go anf try to study now.and i will try to not fall aslp..:regina:.
4:23:00 PM,
our Y grow
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
looks like i jus wasted another 3 hrs,
sittin' there tryin' to get things into my head.
or probably.. listen to them test each other,
might help me memorise the important points from there.
but i still failed.
i'm so at lost.
i dun even know when i haf to wear gloves.
or tt we haf to check with staff nurse.
all these extra info jus sorta come out from
i dunno where...
it's getting me more confused.
cos i couldn't bring myself to ask and stuffs.
i was mean to fiq when he tried to cheer me up with the fries. i ignored rachael when she hugged me the first thing she came to the lib.i ignored shusian when she came and ask me wad's wrong in lect hall.
i jus sorta ignored everybody when it was my fault, in the first place.
okays... i'm guilty, angry and hurted.
cos they cared.
[probably in a wrong way, but they cared]
I'M SORRY GUYS.Sorry rachael!i dunno y u said sorry to me when in mac.it's not ur fault.i tot i would cool down if i leave everyone alone.but keepin' things to myself made things worst.i was angry when i hear mazna tellin' yh all abt how she and izy studied tgt thru phone.when i'm all alone there, tryin' to figure shit out.but still it's my fault. SO SERVE ME RIGHT.thinkin' abt skills made things worster than worst.i totally almost forgot how to do almost everything.didn't get to practise at all.ytd's study plan spoilt and stuffs.plus i'm all brain jammed.izy "bubbled" me,and studied with mazna instead. this hurts alot.I WAS SO FRIGGIN' ALONE. was tt such a huge mistake tt made everyone not talk to me, and not replyin' my msges and stuffs??i didn't get to say wad i wanted to..even till now...i didn't get a chance to defend myself.even till now.that doesn't matter.i never thought tt there would be one day...that my bestfriend would totally ignore me. and not talk to me...and me not talkin' to her...it was hell lot of miserable.if it was someone else.. it wouldn't hurt tt bad."Don't talk to me!" mazna said during lect.this hurts a lil'..but my bestie jus pulled someone off. straight after lect, talk to her all the way.and left me all alone behind there.this hurts even more.then i got no choice but to talk to the phone instead.and then tell me "i'm goin to my mum place"when we were at mrt platform, and jus go off.this hurted tt much, i got angry.i didn't murder anyone laa seyy... and so many bloody clinical stuffs i still dun understand.and dunno who to ask. if i do fail on friday...then most likely i would haf to retest on monday.and sat, sun... mum say we would be goin to their frens chalet.then if i were to study fer clinical and bio pract and 2118 presentation.where the hell would i get the time.then if tt happens. if i fail the retest then how??repeat the entire thing??this is makin' me lose all hopes.makin' me feel so helpless.and becos of all these craps in my head.i cried 5 times already since ytd. and 3 times today.morning, when walkin' outta sch, while walkin' home.i have never felt this pathetic ever.i'm so shagged.it's this 2 days i totally dun need a hp. cos no body bothers to msg or call.to baby. i already saw the tags ytd.it's seeing the tags tt hurt even more. and i dunno wad to think.wad to say...u cancelled the plan fer nth?i couldn't study.cos i dunno how to. if i fail...wad the hell am i gonna do??forget abt tt.i'm SORRY to u too.it's my fault.anyways. ALL THE BEST TO U!and all.thanks fiq and sila fer cheering me up.love snailos~ I'M SORRY. =(.:regina:. =(
10:31:00 PM,
our Y grow
Hmm.. how would u feel??if u brought all the study material.all the practise material...alcohol swabs, sponge, ampoule all...lookin' forward to go out and study and practisewith ur bestie cum study buddy cum tutorcum...and then... jus becos of something stupid..it was jus cancelled jus like tt.imagine tryin' to study alone when u dun even knowu haf to swab the bottle b4 u spike.imagine bein' stuck at IM the entire day...imagine gettin' all ur steps screwed up.i didn't study at all.i jus bloody wasted 1 day like tt.and clinical is on friday.okays. maybe i'm angry with myself. for being stupid. i dunno. i'm so fuckin' not gonna touch cigarettes anymore.wad can i say?it's my friggin' fault. so serve me right. i'm so lazy to try to explain already..:regina:.
2:28:00 PM,
our Y grow
Monday, November 26, 2007
ahahahhahahxx..!!
gendeng.
"opps! i tokd 2 her, accidently~"
kwang3...
wad more u wan?
jus lose it laa!
=P
hheheheex.
aaiyaa.. its hard tho.
nt tokin 2 u n TRYIN 2 maintaiN de Eg0..
yuccckss! dAts so0 not mE~
til wen, u tel me??
u n pride.
owh puhhleasseee~~~~
drop it.
its jus not applicable yea.
o_O...
but nevermynd,
i shal b humble n nyce...
i shal let u carry on playin MY game, DEAREST~~iZy
12:07:00 AM,
our Y grow
Saturday, November 24, 2007
k.. so, til wen u not tokin?
erm, sae, mon?
or myb til wed nyte??
nyahahs!
is dis fun, or bitchy?
hah. U teL mE~
niwaes, heres mY nursin prb:
Bitchiness R/t Hormones Influctuation.
hehx.
SO.. to dose affected,
i deeply apologise, fr0m de bottom of de sink-
ahahx.
peace~
~iZy
11:58:00 PM,
our Y grow
hey B, wanna bet??
50 bucks~ =P
he will talk to u soon.
serious..
but i'm kiddin' abt the 50 bucks. =)
.:regina:. =]
11:21:00 PM,
our Y grow
haiyaaa..
i sadd.. pujokk.
did i jus create ma own mesS?
alaa... it wasnt intentional.
& dAts so0 not mE kaess.
i wana apologise.
but deres lots of butS uhh..
hehs.
anw, evn if i apologise,
wud u accpt it?
hmmss.. i wonder~
yaH.
its true..
i jus wanted 2 test u.
heys. aLL deSe aint necessAry noee..
weiiiiii!! tok 2 mE larr seyy!!
erGh-
~iZy
11:08:00 PM,
our Y grow
okaessss..
i jus pissed sum1 off..
wadds wif me uhh?
nvm. c h0w it goes~
haiyaa..
~iZy
12:34:00 AM,
our Y grow
Thursday, November 15, 2007
hates iron tablets - they are irritating.
my grp too. is irritating.
from the start i already said i cant be leader.
so stop fuckin' make me feel the blame when i cant do well.
if u really think u're tt good.
go ahead.
be the leader.
i dun fuckin' want to be it anyways.
who ever thinks u are that great.
take it take it!!
it'll save me lotsa trouble.
spare me lotsa stress.
and irritation and misery.
sorry. but that's wad i feel.
sorry abt my language.
i talk like tt when i'm pissed.
-----
i dunno wad my friggin' grp wants.
i dunno wad the hell they are thinkin'...
i dunno how to control them...
cos they are all my friends.
and i cant seems to order my friends.
they ain't animals. like pigs.
but overall.
they are cute.
they get very scared when i'm angry...
and it's funny.
b4 the dash thing. i was angry.
after dash... i not so angry dyy...:regina:. =P
11:55:00 PM,
our Y grow
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
i totally believed u fer a few minutes.and u totally freaked me out.i tot u were really so.... Down.and i know.u shd know better.abt wad u shd or shd not do...and things tt u shd not do... if u really gonna do it.i seriously. will join too.at worst. we'll go hosp tgt.some things jus won't solve problems laa..and u...make me worry only...
Apa-apa bahaya u ingat untuk buat pada diri uis gonna make me feel worst then how u feel now.sebab, i kenal u lagi lama dari u kenal dier..so u think laaa..u know u are impt to me.there's nthg much i can do to help.i ain't superwomen..but there's one thing i haf to tell u."я всегда буду здесь для Вас" [R]tidak kira u nk i dengar masalah u ke, nk i teman ke ape-ape.as long as it's not superwoman mission. i'll be there.u get it?i know u do.okays. i'm gonna go shave my goosebumps dyy..love u, baby..:regina:.
11:37:00 PM,
our Y grow
I WANA:
punch de great wall of china~.
huff n puff n blow de house made of bricks down~.
screaaaaaam till de goitre blast into micro pieces~.
overdose myself wif wadever medicine its kold~.
shoot myslf wif a watergun~.
drown myself in de kiddo's pool~.
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssshhhh!!!
But i M stil aLive n kickin!!~
For HE wil briNg ME thrU it.
ALL OF IT, daT iS!~iZy
5:16:00 PM,
our Y grow
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.
tanx. fer readin.
~iZy
5:11:00 PM,
our Y grow
Sunday, November 11, 2007
i found myslf jus fillin my tyme.anitin dat wud kip de tot of u frm ma mynd-jus... Denial, denials~
im over u.
-not--yet-mann.. wads soo hard fergettin?damn it.~iZy
6:15:00 PM,
our Y grow
Saturday, November 10, 2007
hmm.. jus read smtg intrstin..If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. Happy moments, praise God. Difficult moments, seek God. Quiet moments, worship God. Painful moments, trust God.daTs, fer U.
even tho i noee dat u dnoE my blog's addie..
hahx. wad m i tinkin siaa..haiyaaa..toodles fer now-
~iZy
7:58:00 PM,
our Y grow
wad hav i done 2dae..
hms.. done edittin fer hs2036.
quite satisfied wif hs2035..
(but stil worryin if cmpaq lappie can b connected 2 projctor uhh)
shaRQ!!~
owhss.. cAnt wayt 4 next tues!
13th nov, to b xact.
so sexited! oppps! xcited laa seyy..
2 icaS down, down, down---
YESS AHHH!!!
but den uh.. aft dat,
stil hav clinical theOry,
n so on..... bla3~
kk, dAT.. can tok later2 la eyy.. hah.
hms... sumhow, ive neglected my dearie besty 4 quite sumtyme..
hahx. can i sae sorie?
alaa.. sure u'd understnd wadd..
1 fyne dae, wen im free, we outs kaes..
=P
(lyk as if ur readin dis...)
[ahh.. i mis sum pple...]wadever~much Lurves,
~iZy
6:10:00 PM,
our Y grow
Friday, November 9, 2007
| What Your Handwriting Says About You |
You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.
You range from very outgoing to very shy. You are a shapeshifter who is very versatile. You adapt well, and you look at things from many angles.
You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.
You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.
You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.
You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous. |
*+.:regina:.+*
11:06:00 PM,
our Y grow
Thursday, November 8, 2007
hahas! it's ours laa!!except~i want to change the skin b4 i post uh...the spacing in between the werds uh...was IRRITATING.so now! i'm back!to blog~ hehex.ehh B.
it's not becos u never eat laa deyy..it's becos of STRESS.and stress increase the gastric juices secretion in ur stomach.so u get GASTRIC laa..stop stressing silently laaa..make ppl worry only siak u..u see i stress...i very noisy one seyy..i TOO.is wondering...abt the story. he bring ppl tgt. make ppl love.but then... didnt let them last.this is my HUGE BOLD UNDERLINED question mark???i know i'm thinkin' too much.but if i dun think. it isn't gina anymore...and i dun wanna regret. and i dunno how. y did 'god' make life so complicated?i jus need a simple peaceful life.isit so hard?? blueks~!i dun wanna go with the flow laa eyy..i want to control my own life.ouhh well. but i can't control his. i miss being with him la eyy...*+.:rEgiNa:.+*
2:20:00 PM,
our Y grow
Sumhw, i fil dis blog is more of myne rather den Ours.
Gina!! blog laa deyy!!!
hahx.
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Week four>> Kecoh.
Next week, 2 icaS d0wn-
yess ahh!
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hah.
gastric. dnoE y i get dAt often nowdaes..
i g0t eAt wadd..
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niwaes, wads de story behynd de Fate dat God brot uS 2geder??
tings were smooth.
den it got intrestin.
next, even more intrestin.
den, havoc..
n got werst..
Full of question marks.
HUGE ones kaes!!
now, waDs next? hAh??
alaa.. m i tinkin too much?
or worryin too much?
WeLs, as of now..
go w da flow...
hah.
~iZy
12:35:00 AM,
our Y grow
Friday, November 2, 2007
hmss... 1st dae of elective..we rAn 6 rounds seyy!oklaa.. not dat badd 4 a start.. hehs.niwae. saW brOwn 2dae..ahh.GENDENG-4gettin isnt ez uh.
it mkes ur emoti0ns gO nonEng.
erm, MESSY!idiotically pathetic sakk!!h0w 2 get rid u teL mE??haiyAa...sobbs.~iZy
11:51:00 PM,
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